Lost my direction.

I broke down yesterday. Started dropping tears while I was on my way home, on the train. I tried suppressing my tears but it was a futile attempt. And thus, I sobbed all the way from Marina Bay to Admiralty. :'( Continued to cry my eyes out when I was home, in the privacy of my own room.

What happened?

Being a banker was my dream. It was the ONLY thing I wanted to do after graduation. I was happy with my chosen career path until the most unfortunate event happened. We were hit by the worst financial crisis ever. The whole banking landscape was set for a major makeover after that. Everything changed. All the privileges of being a banker were being taken away from us overnight and only the stress and sh*tty work remain. I HATE my job now.

So, what can I do if I hate my job? Quit and find another one? Easier said than done. I just lost my ambition. I don't know what I really wanna do now. I have always said I wanna be a tai-tai but I have tried and know that I will be sick of staying at home once I have rested enough. I felt weak and worthless. I am lost.