Stop testing my patience.

I can never have a peaceful conversation with my mother. I cannot believe that she is so self-centered that she can sacrifice everything, including my happiness for her own interest.

We just quarreled again for the n-th time this month. She was telling me what she expects for my wedding. She did not even ask for my opinion. It was as if it is her own wedding she is planning. I was irritated and flared up at her, told her it is my wedding and I want it to be done my way, not hers.

I am sobbing alone in my room now. There is nothing else I can do since I can never change the fact that she is my mother. I feel so pathetic and helpless. ='(

Resigned, again.

I tendered my resignation yesterday. Got a call from my group sales manager shortly after I sent out the e-mail. He called me to arrange a meeting on Thursday morning so that he can try to convince me to stay. He will try to offer me something again tomorrow. I promised to hear him out first before making my final decision. We will see how it goes.

Went for the Cohen-Brown Proactive Relationship Banking training session at LOD Tampines today. It was deadly boring. The only thing I enjoyed was the company of my colleagues who joined the bank same time I did. They were all very encouraging when I broke the news to them. Spencer was especially kind to offer to refer me to his ex-supervisor at a foreign bank if I can't find a suitable job after I leave the bank. I really appreciate that. =)

Finally got to chat with Joanne again on MSN last night after so long. Miss her so much. Can't wait for Chinese New Year to come soon so that I can see her again because she won't be coming back home till then and I doubt I will be traveling to Perth anytime soon. =/

Winnie came to meet me at the branch yesterday. We went to have lunch together and had a good chat. It has been some time since we did and I definitely enjoyed my lunch break yesterday. Met up with Robin for a while before we left Jurong Point. He is so much fatter than he was when we last saw him a month ago! HaHa~

Accompanied Winnie to town after we met Robin. I went to Takashimaya after she left for lesson. While I was shopping, dear called to say that he was going to play golf at Bishan after dis-arming an alarm at Ang Mo Kio so I met him for dinner after he was done with his 50 golf balls. While I was leaving Orchard, I bumped into Gary and his new girlfriend. It was the second time I bumped into him there. I figured I should avoid going to town alone next time so that even if I bump into Gary there again, I will look better off without him. =/ Felt damn guilty when I met dear after that. We bumped into dear's colleagues too while we were having our dinner at Long House in Thomson.

Suddenly miss my dear now. Another two days to our long weekend. Wish time passes faster.

another sleepless night

I am suffering from insomnia again. =/ To top it off, I have branch duty later at 1030AM. Yes, I have to work on a SUNDAY morning.

As you can tell by now, bankers have no life. Our lives revolves around our work all the time, which explains why I am awake at this hour. The amount of stress I am under is so great that it has taken a toll on my health. I have a serious case of migraine which gives me a swollen eye each time it strikes. SoBz~

In view of my ailing health, I have decided to resign. There are, of course, other reasons for my resignation but due to the sensitivity of the issue, these shall not be discussed in my blog.

Due to my recent bad experience in my current employment, I have decided to seek career opportunities in industries other than banking and finance. So far, I have received a few calls but nothing has been set in cast yet. I shall keep my fingers crossed. Silkair is recruiting flight stewardess on 25 and 26 September. I may just give it try. Let's hope I find a job soon. Don't wanna live on instant noodles for too long. =P

Kenneth has been very supportive during this difficult period. Though he will nag a little some times, I know he will support my decision no matter what it is. Take for an instance, when I moved on to my current job, he bought me a new blazer for work though he always complains that I buy too many clothes when I already have two wardrobes of them. HeE~ He will be bringing me to Melaka again at the end of the month to unwind. We will also go to Bangkok during my birthday in October if I am still available by then. My dear is so sweet! I love my dear. =D

Talking to Joey Ong on MSN now. I can always count on him to entertain me whenever I can't sleep because he is always online during the wee hours! HaHa~ He is a pilot with SIA and he was kind enough to share some tips with me for the flight stewardess interview. =P

It is 5AM. Craving for char kway. Shall try to get some sleep then go grab a good breakfast before going to the branch.